with summer progressing on I find myself without much money, but with many Animation and illustration opportunities.
which I am happy to say that I have finally secured some pretty decent work, I'm working with this professor at my university on their Web Doc project, i'm a general animator for them working 15$ an hour on anything to intros, transitions and ect, all at an experimental style thankfully. however, I am also working on another short film at the same, but not for pay, but with the reassurance by the studio who's helping me that this project will get me very far, the film will be seen in many film festivals around the world and I will travel with it free of cost. is this too good to be true? no, this actually the 3rd time ill be doing this, I,v been working along side this studio called Wapikoni, it was thanks to them that I had gone to Finland, France and just recently 3 weeks ago Germany. They told me if I can submit another short film before the 17th, ill have a whole list of opportunities heading me way. on top of the whole list of other opportunities from other studios coming my way
However.. its all easy said then done...I am actually under a fuck load of stress, working day in and day out in my dark humid room, lost so much sleep and now becoming nocturnal since 2 pm is basically morning for me.. I'm starveling because I am broke as fuck and self control and money management no where to be seen.. blah blah blahh and blah blah, cant hang with friends because no money to go to events or movies or even take public commute. blah blah.
sure I am getting paid and stuff soon, but like 95% of it goes to rent and most likely Ill have to get my parents to chip in. yeh I have lots of good things coming my way, but holy fuck does every thing suck currently. and yeah i could wait but I feel it just sucks watching for a shit storm rocket covered in vomit flying my way each day. one thing that really pisses me off is that, even if I do make alot of money, I wont be able to pay off my studio tuition from last year that my sponsor did not pay for. thats like 6600$ how the flying fucking hell am I gonna whip that shit out of my ass? I can barely support my own soda addiction.. or let alone rent.
yeah sorry guys, there is a whole storm of shit keeping me from focusing and working on your commissions, that is to say I do intent to finish them.
to put things in stone Ill list what I owe.
its likely that maybe in week or so if things get slightly better ill get back on to finishing them.