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vent art.. im feeling like shit right now.. and i just wish to get a few things off my mind.
i feel that i.m slowly being abandon by most of my friends, at the expense of isolating myself to better myself at what i do best, art of course, i push myself away from every one and make myself completely unavailable so no one can reach and disturb me at my work. the result is the ability to create, but inability to communicate. not to mention no quality time to check out what people are talking about, which explains why I'm short on talk.
i just feel that i have been working too much, living under a rock and that because of my time devoted else where i can't be with my friends, and because of that my friends don't come looking for me, don't invite or show up at the door like they use too. its sad because my parents tough me to be a work freak, so on instinct I automatically just want to work when i get board. but thats not what i want.. i just want to talk to some one..i don't want to be alone.

this was a experimental peace with textures and water color shade. made with sai.
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:iconhermafrodite:
hermafrodite Featured By Owner May 11, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
im so there
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timberwolfdsk Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2013
I like his expression and his hair and pretty much the overall feel of the picture.....he seems really deep in thought.

Its important to get out and hang out with your friends or try to have them come over and hangout at your home to give you a break and give you a chance to laugh. Its important to find something to laugh over each and everyday.....either a funny movie or book you enjoy reading what ever makes you laugh make time for it each and everyday. I think its healthy too but forget why....lol...know I have read that fact somewhere but latched onto the fact that laughter is good for your health.

I would tell you a joke but have been told many times my jokes suck....so my attempt would most likely have the opposite effect. ;)

What kind of music do you listen to? Like Black Veil Brides or Gackt or Hyde? Skillet? There are so many out now that totally make the day more fun to jump around to.
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Erufu-san Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so sad...
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DarkKillerPincess Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
Don't be sad, I'll be you friend.
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:iconeixla:
Eixla Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2013
You can always come and talk to me Ray. I know that it's not the same as it is talking to someone face to face but hopefully it'll help? *Hugs*
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:iconcolorapo:
ColoRapo Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, you're not the only one who lives under a rock.
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NeonWolf010 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love your drawings there so awesome!
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EMOFweak Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey,
I am against the same exact wall as you, except you are more cooler.

Since I am a loner again(Like I been wanting to be), I can be to myself without anyone giving me questions.
It maybe cool to have ppl around, but to me, it just cripples; despite the fact that my own wall does too.
But you know what you right? Hey, you are awesome to us on DA. I would totally hang out and talk to you.
Stay wicked. <^_^>
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DragulasDragons Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i agree with the comment below, you should find a way to balance your work and friends, them maybe things will get better *hugs*
but i'll always be here for you to talk or vent to :huggle:
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Darkside915 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013   Digital Artist
What you need to do is learn to balance, friends and work, in order to harmonize both of them :3 Let me explain, it's GREAT that you're so focused on your art 8D But, from what I'm reading here, it saddens you that you're losing friends over it. So what I think would be a good thing, is for you to try to maybe, like, set a schedule for yourself? :3 Maybe like, "I'm going to put aside (idk uh...) three or four hrs (or a certain day or two, etc) to socialize with mates, and then set aside another set of hours or days for art/etc." It's hard at first, but if you keep working at it, you'll soon be more easily like "Oh! I haven't talked/hung out/etc. with anyone in a while, let me contact them 8D" etc. Start by maybe setting up alarms on your phone for it. Sounds stupid I know, but it rly works to remind you with things, especially since, as you say in your desc here, you get rly focused on your drawings/etc . c: I do that all the time to help remind me to not neglect ppl because of my social anxiety! xD (Now when I'm having a depressive episode, nothing works...still trying to figure a way out of THOSE lolol FFFF. xD) So when you start working on a drawing, maybe have your alarm go off after four or five hrs, so that you can move on and do smtng with a friend/etc :3 I'M NOT MAKING SENSE LOL. Not to mention, who am I to talk...I isolate myself too, and withdraw from life for MONTHS on end due to my depression, as was the recent unpleasantness for my 7month hiatus lololol xD But anyways! It's never fun to feel lonely...But I do know how hard it is to keep up with ppl...Sometimes I just don't understand how "normal" ppl can do it! Just keep up with socializing and stuff so effortlessly idk...D: I wish you luck with it :'D If your friends abandon you, even if you explain to them the reason why you find it hard to keep in touch, then they're not very good friends >> I mean, they should understand that you're trying :'D As long as you try your best, that's a good start! C: Also, maybe try to start making first contact with some of your mates too (like good ones you don't want to lose/consider them worth the effort) they might be hurt/feel like they're annoying you/etc. and that's why they've stopped talking to you :'D I mean...sometimes ppl just think they're annoying someone if they try to talk to them first all the time! I certainly do x,D;;; Which is why I then just...stop :'D;; It's like OH GOD I MUST BE ANNOYING THIS PERSON. THEY NEVER EMAIL/TXT/ETC. ME FIRST SO ... D: Yeah :'D Just try explaining your issue to your friends; if they're good friends they'll understand, surely ^^

NOW ONTO THE DRAWING >8C I fucking ranted too much up thar XD Anyways, I LIKE THE PERSPECTIVE IN THIS PIC 83 And the dark, gloomy BG C8 I'm so sorry for the chara tho D: He looks so sad :< FFFF *sits with him* YOU'RE NO LONGER ALONE, BRAH |D /annoying. Vent art is good though <3 I hope you feel a bit better since drawing this! And it does help to reach out online, like here on dA :3 I know it's not the same as IRL mates, but it's something, right? X,D

FFF NICE PIC. SO MUCH EMOTION AND ANGST AND FFF GREATNESS.

FEEL BETTER. I'M HERE FOR YOU IF YOU NEED A FRIEND :iconletmehugyouplz: Take care and may your days be brighter! :>
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GoryBlueCat Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Hey man, I know that feeling. Not too long ago I started doing that, but ended it because everything just went...downhill, I guess you can say. My grades were slipping, I lost really close friends (even made new enemies), and I actually lost the will to draw. Meanwhile I was taking a hiatus from this site. When I came back, I was just...angry and depressed.

So yeah, I'm not shutting myself off from talking to people ever again. o-o;

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this right now. If you ever want to talk to anyone about this, come find me and leave a message, I'll try my best to get back to you. ^^
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xmetawolf Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
you know a strap jackat might look nice on him along with grell's smile and hellsing's and fma's glowing eye techniqe
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:iconofbugs:
OfBugs Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
Duuuude, come on skype lots. D:
We can skype chat and draw together. I dunno if it'll help you, but it helps me a lot.
Man, when I get money I'm saving up to come visit you and I'll give yuh so much hugs. >:

I know exactly how you feel right now. With moving and all I don't really have my friends around at all. I have one good friend here, but that's really it. I find that since I'm further away from my other friends that I'm sort of losing contact with them. I'm too busy with finding work and they're too busy with work. It creates a bad feeling in my gut and I end up feeling rather lonely. In turn it affects my ability to make art. =/

My advice to you is to make days only for art then pick the other days for your friends. Like make weekends a time to hang out or something. c:
Also, always take 10 minutes of your day to say hi to someone over a text or the internet. After I graduated from school and started losing friends to work I found it was the best way to keep my friends around. It just sorta shows them you still exist and care. They'll return that care back if they's a real friend.

Anyways, come talk to meeeee. D:
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Shakura-Kazuki Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Pretty sure the same here. But instead of work I do useless stuff and spent my whole time doing nothing productive, even if I could. I always have to invite myself when I want to do something with my friends... It's like a devil's cyrcle. You are what you are and if you want to change, asking your friends for doing something, nobody wants to... :/
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JTHMFrAeK Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey man, sorry to hear you're feeling like that, I know what you mean about bein' alone. I only really talked to Tim for like the past 4 months and then he just went off to Basic so now I don't talk to anyone.
If you wanna message me on Facebook or give me a text sometime dude my phone number is 1-506-227-8513.
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
i wouldn't mind that at all dude, i was planing on getting your number some time so that when i goo to monkey town i would have some one to hang with, AND DUDDE! thats a sad! tim is like uber awsome! i think we are talking about the same tim... ill text you for sure dude
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JTHMFrAeK Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Cool man. I'm in school most of the day but I turn my phone back on after 4.
Also, I'm no in Monkey Town anymore, right now I'm residing in Charlottetown.
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ReleaseTheAtmosphere Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
I know EXACTLY what you're going through; so sorry to hear about that. Good luck friend:heart:
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:iconsteph-sama:
Steph-Sama Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
it's never easy to balance out work and friends when you grow up in relative isolation, its a mixed bag, you want to work but equally you don't want to bleft alone and behind.. I can relate and seem to be in a similar place. the only thing i can think of is maybe give yourself at least one day in the week where you go and visit friends, they may not be making the effort but that might be because they don't want to distract you from your goal. i'm trying to do the same thing and though it might seem a little akward or forced at first, friends always have a way of getting past that.
I saw your post on tumblr and it just breaks my heart to know that theres little i can do to help :(.
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MTheLittleMonsta Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
awesome work. I really do understand how you feel. Like me right now and all these days before.
but if you want to talk I'm here c:
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:iconzilla-breath:
Zilla-Breath Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student General Artist
You know you can always call me sweetheart...
:iconluvluvplz:
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Trinkuh2 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
/hugs
No one should ever have to feel alone. There was once a point in time where i could be around everyone and feel empty it was the worst feeling of my life....i felt like no one wanted to spend time with me....i still have those days where i feel dead on the inside.
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Fiend30 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013
This piece matches my mood too, I wanna write. But everything feels so empty ;_; sorry, being all gothy :')
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KennyNoms Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013
I know the feeling as well. I've had a bad habit of pushing my friends away when I've needed to work or study and, while they tried to get me out of that ditch at first, I think it became too much work for them and they gave up.
Though, in the end, it's a good way to figure out who is a true friend, right?
So, understanding comfort hugs and ice cream ;w;
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WiNGz69 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student Writer
You know, this is kind of how I feel. My art means everything to me and often that means isolation as I seek constant improvement but what I have learned is that my art speaks to me just as loud as any of my friends do. In a way your art just spoke to me, through it I understood what you were going through. Sometimes through your art you can learn to love yourself because art is a form self-expression, and you wont find a better friend anywhere. That much I promise.
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DragonPortal Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I hate those feelings. I know what you're feeling, man :heart:
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BlackSnowWonderland Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know the feeling man. The day I graduated from high school and wasn't in constant contact with most of the people I knew, it was pretty staggering. Luckily I have a few people I'm still good friends with that I can talk to and what not. I know how it feels to be lonely like this, though not from self-isolation but from other people not really having time for me. If you're ever lonely and need a talk Ray, you know I'm here for you. :iconluvluvplz:
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
aww thats exactly how i feel. ohh alister thank you so much for helping and being a friend to me :iconluvluvplz:
i can always count on you on never fadding away like most of my other friends
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BlackSnowWonderland Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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N0XI0US--GLiTCH Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
/hugs u n u
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:iconcorpse-boy:
Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks~
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Captain-Jei Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I recently had a falling out with some of my friends and what not too, because I did the same thing, except not to get better with art, but with my writing and dealing with my anxiety. It's hard to balance out priorities. I hope you get everything figured out soon, and start feeling better C:

Beautiful picture, I'm a new watcher but your art is fabulous. You have a really unique style, I love the shades in this. Keep up the good work <3
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heartskittles Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*Huggles* it's okay, Talking takes too much energy anyway c:
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:iconcorpse-boy:
Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
*hugs* i agree, but some times you can't help but want it
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heartskittles Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how you feel, but why not try and tell your friends whats going on? Then they'll understand and try to help. If not then you have many fans who care about you and try to help including me :)
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
i wish i could tell them. my friends what im feeling and that im lonely, but they wont understand because they arn't like me, they wont understand why im feeling alone. other then self-isolation, but they are all hipsters and kids that just don't want to get any where in life. me being the odd that wants too.
in that case your right, i have all my fans here and including your self to keep me company <3
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heartskittles Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I cant promise that it will get better, but I hope it will. Friends come and go and family isn't forever, but try to make memories that will last a life time. What I mean is that when your working, whenever you complete something big, go out and have fun. :)
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Bloody-Syren Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:( *hugs* If you need anything at all, message me. I'll always be there to listen to you! You do incredible work and just because you work hard doesn't mean that no one sees how hard you really are trying hard with everything and pushing yourself to be the best for you! We believe in you, and we all want whatever's best for you <3
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
aww~ in that case ill keep you in mind to message, thank you c;
i do infact try hard, i just wish my friends would some how appreciate that, but sadly they don't -_-
thank you dearest :D
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fushigi-no-kuni-oujo Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Aaaaaw, that sound terrible ;n;

At least you have us here on dA. And, if you really miss your friends in RL, then give them a call or meet up with them for a day. Who knows? It might inspire your next big project ^^
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
awww your right, i do have you guys on DA for me c;
yeah, maybe in time my RL friends will come around if i call them or some thing.
thank you c;
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fushigi-no-kuni-oujo Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You're very welcome ^^

And besides, with the awesome art you do,
I promise you, you'll always have someone
to talk to. Heck, you're part of my inspiration
for my horror theme for my Advanced Higher Art course 8)

So enjoy yourself and don't let your feelings drags you down, kay? ^w^
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Saya-Chan-7 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013   General Artist
*touches arm* hey *smiles* im here if u wana talk ^^
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
*smiles back* i really wouldn't mind that..
you should add me on Skype some time if you have it, i havn't talk to you in ages, i miss those convos we had
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Saya-Chan-7 Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013   General Artist
aww yes! *hug tackle* send me a note of your skype name! owo
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Hey if you didn't get the note my Skype is blackvirusvoidboy
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Saya-Chan-7 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013   General Artist
sorry wasnt on for 2 days lol
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AnotherGoth Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
D:> //hugs
I can understand that feeling, not to your degree i'm sure, but my school likes to drown you in work so you have no social life if you want to get any kind of good grade :/
If you ever want to talk dude, i pretty sure you've got me on Skype or here or tumblr or whatever man
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Corpse-boy Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
aww <33 you do understand, pretty much got it right there.
so much work = no social life
i was actually wondering if you had Skype or such, you seem like a cool person, i wouldnt mind adding you at all. its blackvirusboy
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AnotherGoth Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Pfft <3 >///< Making me blush with your compliments of cool
Yea i've got you, let me know if there's a time you're specifically online, we could chat :D
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